A Letter to my Mom

Mom-

There is nothing that can bring you such intense joy and sorrow in the same moment as motherhood can. I find that I am constantly overjoyed when my daughter does something new, but it quickly turns to sadness when I think about the fact that she will never again NOT do that. I am finding that I am finally beginning to understand some of the things that you have always said and taught me, because I now face them myself.

I know how you felt the moment I was born.

I know how you felt when I smiled for the first time.

I know how you felt when I said my first word and took my first steps.

I know how you felt on my first day of school.

I know how you felt when I experienced my first heartbreak.

I know how you felt when I found Jesus for the first time. and the second time. and the third time.

I know how you felt when I had new discoveries and revelations.

I know how you felt watching my walk down the aisle on my wedding day.

I know how you felt when you watched me deliver my daughter.

And I know how you feel now reading this letter. Although I have yet to experience many of these things with my own daughter, the feeling cannot be that much different. Just maybe more severe. I am so excited to guide my daughter through these events, but I am also terrified that my heart may burst into a thousand pieces in the process.

Motherhood is the only thing that can crush your heart and then mend it all within one sentence. I know that now. The only thing closer to this love is the love that Christ has for us. And you taught me that. Motherhood is intense- there is no other way to describe it.

You are a brave and strong woman. You have endured many hardships and challenges in your last 27 years of motherhood, but they never broke you. You constantly turned to Christ, and turned us to Christ. I am forever grateful to you for loving me, teaching me, nurturing me, and not throwing me out the window when you felt like it.

I love that I can now share motherhood with you, and I hope that one day my daughter feels the same way about me as I feel about you. Thank you for carrying both of us, me and Piper, before you even knew who we were. We would not be here without you, and I would not be the person I am today without your guidance.

“Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your Master.”- Matthew 25:23

Because you have been such a “good and faithful servant”, God has already blessed you with 6 (almost 7) grandchildren- and many more to come. Your legacy will live on.

I love you, Mom. 

Happy Mother’s Day.