Since that day, I have been able to return to most of my "normal" life activities. Which is good, because we are moving (more on that later) and as we come up on holidays and family visits, I want to be able to enjoy my time. Every day that goes by, I can't believe how far away from surgery I am. And I can't believe I actually faced my fears and did it!
I also started physical therapy a few weeks ago. No, don't get grossed out. It's mainly pelvic floor exercises and core strengthening. Since all of those muscles are attached to each other and to the tailbone area, they all work together to strengthen and heal me. Plus, since the surgery met our insurance deductible, I'm doing anything and everything I can for me and Pips before the end of the year!
What is interesting though, is how all of this has worked out. Without going into much detail, I'll explain. My worse fear has always been something going wrong or having to have surgery "down there". Well, it happened. And then when I started PT I still didn't want anything "down there", and I am working with a woman who specializes in women's health and is willing to do as much as I will let her to make sure I heal not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well.
Discussing all of this with my Mom, she was beyond herself with excitement that God had worked it out this way. She said that not only was God walking beside me and healing me through this whole process, but he is making me WHOLE again. He has not left me to deal with the healing and move forward with fear. He has made me new and renewed my spirit as well. It's been so amazing! It's like I can hear him saying to me "No I'm not going to just heal you, I'm going to make you BETTER than you've ever been".
This has been quite the journey. I am constantly trying to stay teachable and mold-able for whatever lies ahead. Every day I feel thankful for my recovery and the healing that has taken place. I found a neat group of women who have all had similar experiences and surgeries as well, and many of them have had up to 7 SURGERIES to repair what I had (Eeek! I said HAD!).
Although I am not in the clear completely, many surgeries "break down" or fail within the first few weeks, and I have not had ANY symptoms. My surgeon feels confident that the surgery was successful and I am healed! She did say that because my body is not the way that God created it any longer, my body could experience "aging issues" at an earlier age than may be normal, but there is no way to tell until we are there. That's fine with me!
In the meantime, I am trying to live every day feeling healed. Sometimes I forget that I even had surgery, and that is a huge deal for something that has constantly been on my brain for 2 years! I still have some road ahead of me and some healing (like healing those dang nerves!), but I know it will come. God has not forgotten me, and I am reminded of that every day!
And just for the fun of it, here is a pciture of me being prepped for surgery...11 WEEKS AGO! Those hospital nurses really make you look glamorous :).
That's so great to hear! Thanks for sharing how God has revealed Himself to you through this experience. Such a beautiful testimony to His goodness :-)
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